Past two month, I try to fight for it but I am feel like I am waiting for smth that isnt going to happen. Iqwan (not a real name), you already move on and what for I am waiting for you hahahaha I am here nothing to say anymore, no more waiting, no more trying, no more love to share and it is only left a thousand of hurt in my heart. Em I dont hate you but Im just disappointed you turned into everything you said you'd never be. That's why I am so surprise now, and I can't even believe it. I am waiting 5 years for you to marry me for no reason and now you are trying to say that I ain't the one. You said you wouldn't hurt me but you did. You only see a flaw inside me and you already decided to reject me. If you think that's the reason for you to not get married to her, know that you are not ready to marry anyone either. Perfection comes when you create, comes when you lead. Not to be waited.
After a while you can't cry anymore hazwani. You have to believe that what happened is what supposed to happen and you can't change that, even if you tried. And yes, you left a mark on me that no one could ever replace. Qada' & Qadar not because of karma and 'what goes around comes around'. We are muslims need to believe in Qada' and Qadar. So dry your tears and hope that tmr will be better. So, It gaining the best for myself means letting you go, then I must be willing to do it.
You were never supposed to mean this much to me, I was never supposed to fall so hard. But you know what? I did and that's what keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell to let you go.
Thankyouuu, I hope that 'redha' always in my self.
I LOVE MYSELF I LOVE MY FAMILY I LOVE MY BOYFIE I LOVE MY FRIENDS I LOVE YOU
